You're the Music in me

I was watching High School Musical 2 today. It wasn't as good as the first one, but some of the songs were good. I really liked "You're the Music in Me."

I have noticed recently that music is a huge part of my life. I don't think I could live without it. So, I won't. So, I will sing and dance and enjoy the music everywhere.

Ya for life!

Beauty is in my eye

Attraction is a weird thing. To me there are two kinds of attraction; physical attraction and the attraction to a personality. It seems that for me the physical attraction becomes unimportant once I have truly discovered the beauty of the personality.

Sometimes I wonder, how do I appear to others. In my minds eye, I am very different then when I look in the mirror. Sometimes I look in the mirror and see what I somewhat expect. Other days I am surprised by what I see.

How is beauty defined? I guess the saying makes sense, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. So, can a person see everything as beautiful?

Everything!

I am totally infatuated with Everything by Michael Buble. I want someone to feel that way about me someday. Don't get me wrong, I am not trying to complain. I don't need that right now, I am just saying, that is what I want someday.

Anyway, I am getting really ready to go back to school. I am really excited to stop working. I am also looking forward to go school supply shopping!

I have this obsession with office supply stores. Looking at the fresh crayons all lined up in a row. The smell of new pencils. It is so much fun! I think it is the whole idea of becoming organized; I crave it. So, when I go to the store it is my organization fix.

Here are the good days!

Bloop!

I think bloop is such a funny word. It is really fun to say, and it is such a weird noise. In one of my math classes a computer made that sound randomly through the class. good times!

I am thinking about going to Jerusalem. Wouldn't that be awesome? I think it would be so cool. I also want to learn, well, everything, but I was going to say Hebrew. Man, I am so excited for life!

Until we meet again my friend...

Dating?

First of all, let me just say that church was amazing today. It made me want to change without making me feel too guilty. Perfect blend. I thought it was a good day.

In other news, I have been thinking about dating. There must be total subliminal messaging going on because I really want to date. The funny part is I really don't.

Now, I know that didn't make sense, so let me explain. I feel like I am missing out, which in a way I am because I don't really date, but I don't really try either. However, right now I am not looking for a serious relationship, so dating is kind of irrelevant at least for me.

But BYU is stupid and makes you think that you are doing something wrong if you aren't married by like 18. But I don't even know who I am, how can I be someone's wife?

That is the real question of the day.

btw I just finished March 15, 2002

Raindrops on Roses

I have this problem. Well, it's not so much a problem as a weird fact. I believe that those who read this will either fit in to two categories; those who identify with me and those who think I am off my rocker. (Those who know me, know that most of the time I am off my rocker but life is way more fun that way.)

Anyway, my 'problem' is that whenever I find something I think is beautiful, I internalize it and it creates this strange... energy. I guess it is more like powerful emotional energy. It is amazing and beautiful, but I don't have an outlet for it. It is one of those things that no matter what I do, I can't let is soar and fly like it should be. Eventually it goes away until I find another object of beauty, but what I wouldn't give to find a way to express it.

So, dear readers, what do you think of me now? It doesn't really matter, no offense, since in reality this blog is just one of my many attempts at trying to unleash that emotion from inside.

Have you ever noticed the beauty of raindrops on roses?

Yummy!

I have been saying this a lot lately and I don't know why. I mean for things that actually taste good and for other things too. Speaking of yummy, I just ate a chocolate-chip cookie!

I am pretty sure you have no idea how big of a dork I am. So to illustrate, here is a conversation I had with my friend, except he was away, so it is just me talking. Good times.

ldsblondie2: are you there?
Auto response from chriscoolzer: away
ldsblondie2: or are you actually away?
ldsblondie2: it sounds like you are actually away, but guess what?
ldsblondie2: I am going to talk to you anyway!
ldsblondie2: isn't that exciting!
ldsblondie2: I think it is
ldsblondie2: since you are not going to be very helpful in this conversation, I will have to work really hard
ldsblondie2: I wonder if your computer makes a noise every time I type something?
ldsblondie2: wouldn't that be funny if it did?
ldsblondie2: I think it would be hilarious
ldsblondie2: So, the other day I was walking to my car
ldsblondie2: I know lol
ldsblondie2: it was so funny I almost go hit by a car
ldsblondie2: because i was on the ground laughing
ldsblondie2: were you there at church when I was engaged for like a second
ldsblondie2: to my cousin?
ldsblondie2: that was so funny
ldsblondie2: alexa was almost on the floor laughing as in rofl
ldsblondie2: I really like the name rofl
ldsblondie2: I think I will name my kid rofl
ldsblondie2: by the way,
ldsblondie2: this is mostly payback for the fact that you never came back last night when we were talking
ldsblondie2: but this is pretty bad payback
ldsblondie2: because if you actually read this, you will just have a good laugh
ldsblondie2: and if you don't then you won't know what you missed
ldsblondie2: burn
ldsblondie2: man
ldsblondie2: i am pretty good at having a one sided conversation
ldsblondie2: maybe I talk too much
ldsblondie2: what do you think?
ldsblondie2: you have to be careful what you say here, because if I do talk to much and you don't like it
ldsblondie2: then you will want me to know that i have this problem
ldsblondie2: but you can't just tell me that I talk too much because that will hurt my feelings.
ldsblondie2: what are you going to do?


So to anyone that reads my blog, here is a yummy conversation that shows who I truly am!

Have fun, eat cookies, and bring my reputation back by midnight!

Changes...

So I cut my hair in April. I cut off way too much. I really don't like having this short of hair, so I am going to suck it up and take one for the team (I don't know what team I am talking about, but I am totally committed.)

On a somewhat related note. I have realized that I want to be more ambitious (funny thing I was really lazy today). Anyway, I need to become the person I want to be.

I am trying to make it so that my blog isn't too deep. I am not a depressed person, but part of the reason I made a blog is to let my crazy little thoughts run free! Sometimes, I don't like listening to myself, so I am making you listen to me insead. How kind of me, if I do say so myself.

Until we are reunited....(sorry, that was the cheesiest sign off, but I am trying to be creative. You'll get what you get and you'll like it!)

Personality test

So I took these two personality tests that were supposed to give the same results. However I am a totally split person. Well, maybe that's just how I am.

Test Results

Your personality type is ESTJ.

Extraverted (E) 50%	Introverted (I) 50%
Sensing (S) 64%	Intuitive (N) 36%
Thinking (T) 65%	Feeling (F) 35%
Judging (J) 50%	Perceiving (P) 50%

Your Type is
ENFJ

Extraverted	Intuitive	Feeling	Judging
Strength of the preferences %
11	25	25	56

It's funny because sometimes I really feel split. like should I follow my heart or my mind?

Anyway, I should go to bed now.

kisses!

I Love Lacey

So, I am watching So you think you can Dance from last night. I have decided that that was one of the best nights in television. Everyone was on there game, but especially Lacey Schwimmer. The dance where she is a mannequin is spectacular. So is the business deal dance with Neil and Sabra.

It makes me want to dance more than anything. But then again watching American Idol makes me want to sing. Am I really that easily influenced? It appears so.

On a similar note (although not really), I think that Fields of Barley is a beautiful song. Sting sings a version of it called Fields of Gold. I think the melody is entrancing and the lyrics are magical.

Anyway, that is my rave of the day.

Dove Chocolate Love

So I had a piece of dove chocolate today, and you know they have those messages on the inside. So I open one up and I am eating it while I read what it said in side. Guess what it said?

When two hearts race, both win.

Yeah I'm serious. I almost choked on the chocolate I was laughing so hard.

Anyway, I looked on line two days ago and saw that the job I wanted was posted. I was so excited. I was getting my resume ready and then when I went on yesterday to actually submit it, IT WAS GONE!!!!

I was distraught, so I sent an email to the job site seeing what happened and if I could still apply. We'll see what happens, I hope things work out.

Acceptance

Acceptance is a funny thing. No matter who you are there is always a part of you that longs to be included somewhere. It is especially hard for me growing up in the church. Mostly because we are taught to love one another, but I didn't always feel that.

We also grow up learning that you don't need to be accepted by others because Heavenly Father love you and his love is infinite. But for me that is hard too because although is love is infinite, it doesn't make my life better.

I guess in the grand scheme of things the best thing I can do is to be confident in who I am especially because the people who do know me like me. I can't be that bad can I?

Well, I should work now.

Peace, I'm out!

the 100 hour board and my addiction

I love the 100 hour board. I have a hard time not reading it all the time, but at least it is reading, right. It's not mindless video games, right? Okay, who am I kidding? Anyone?

Anyway, I am thinking about trying out to be a writer. I feel like it is a club that I would fit in with. Maybe that is a stupid reason, but it's what I've got. I also love giving answers even if they are made up. See I totally fit.

Today is back-word writing day.
Yadot si kcab-drow gnitirw yad.

I rednow tahw I dluohs etirw won? ebyam, i dluohs etirw tuoba sburcs. I ma gnihctaw taht ihgir won. ymmuy!

this is a lame post. It's cuz I am watching tv and iming
I don't multi-task well apperently.

peace out!

To blog or not to blog? That is the question.

I had a really hard time deciding if I should create a blog or not. Well, we'll see how this goes.

Sometimes I think I need an outlet for my thoughts and emotions. Sometimes my thoughts go wild and I can't handle my inner dialogs. In theory, this blog should cut down on my inner monologue, but maybe it will only encourage it.

It's funny because when I was little I specifically remember thinking what I would tell reporters about myself when I was famous. Even now when I write I am always directing what I write to some other person, some unseen being that is reading these words. I guess I want to be heard, even if I am only heard by my made up audience.

Seriously though, the only reason we have words is to communicate, so how can I write if I don't know what I am communicating and who I am communicating to. It is nice though, to get things off my chest even if I am the only person that reads this.

peace and love